OMG nicko is so cute!!!

People say, "You're just 17, what for you're so obsessed with religion and god that kind of stuff, it's so freaky!"

If it's not the time now to follow God then when is the so-called suitable time? I may say that A levels are important and i cannot afford to screw up. Then after i finish my A levels? When that time comes, i may say that i need to have some fun first before entering uni, then comes uni, and i may say that i would want to concentrate on my studies, uni fees are high, cannot afford not to scrape through. Then comes after uni and i may say that i will have to find a job and enter the working world so i dun have the time for that. Then comes the time when i retire. Oh, im too old to follow god, can't really accept something unknown and new. Then comes the day we die and we think that oh we can't possibly turn back the time so there really is nothing to do already. On and on it goes, we're always giving excuses, only ourselves know why. If there are really so many excuses then for our whole life, we will never even give ourselves the chance to know god, not to follow him and give your heart to him, just the one time to convince ourselves to go visit our friend's church and to get an experience, surely this is something relatively easy to do? What exactly is preventing us from wanting to know more about the God whom created us. Now we cannot deny that there is a great figure who created all things on earth. Where do you think nature and the diverse living things in it come from? Or you may argue that there is no need for you to even know Jesus or God (most ppl say this)! We're not in dire need of anything, we're not so sick or diseased that we have to resort to religious help in order to get well, we're not born in a christian family so what's the point of starting anyway and we don't even know if there really is a god who exists just to love us. Most of all, we're not prepared to become 'religious' and mix with all those 'holy' people. I'm the one who rule my own life. I have the ultimate control over it. I can do whatever i want with my life. And since my parents gave birth to me then they are the ones whom i should put as the most important people in my life and i should love them the most. Who is this jesus? Even if he really existed that long ago, how can he be a god now? He's just a human for goodness' sake! I thought all humans are imperfect? Then how come this one person can be perfect, give perfect love and still be alive and living beside us all this while? Everything is about i, i, i. I want to do this i want to do that. I do these things for myself, not for anyone else. I can't imagine myself even doing things and serving a 'Lord', it's too weird, too detached from reality, too ridiculous to even think of, too unimaginable.

Well, even when i first became a christian, i still played around with these thoughts. I thought that going to church is a bore. Even staying at home and staring into space seems to be a much better option. I thought that there is no need to go at all as i can't understand the meaning of it. All the things they preach, they seem to be all the same! Blah blah blah. In my heart, i still don't know who is God or Jesus exactly. Yes i know that Jesus loves us and he came to died for us and he washed away our sins and blah blah. In my mind i know all these things but in my heart, i don't feel any of these things at all. I don't understand his love. I can't really come to terms with the meaning of the cross. "What do they mean when they say the cross is the bridge to salvation? And about sins, what are they? How can they be washed away? If so, then why are there still so many natural disasters? In fact, it's growing even more!"

Any person who really wants to know all these answers to the questions, if he or she is willing to do research, im sure that in the end, they will be convinced that there really is a god. Just take a look at the bible. It truly is an amazing miracle itself. Written over so many years ago by different people who don't know each other (they can't possibly have access to the things written before them as when they write the things which they've written already, the bible is not even published, the different books written before are not even brought together yet), it has over thousands of predictions which have really come true, in today's context. And it is the most accurate history document ever as the accounts by different people are written at most within 60 years of each other. The people who gave their word most of them know Jesus and have seen him, since it's such a short time span. And i don't think they have anything to gain by telling lies and falsehoods.

If you're interested to see what are the predictions in the bible which have come true, go to www.justtypeanything.logspot.com ignore the advertisements though, and scroll down.

Just imagine. There is a person who loves you so much he is willing to suffer all kinds of torture for your sake, how will you feel?

Nicko. male. 5 years old. i love him alot. yeah.

Go kelly's tribe blog to see the sermon on last sunday which i've posted!

Here i am standing before you
Im yearning for your touch
Im missing that familiar love
The best of our times keep flooding my mind
They seem so faraway now
Weird it seems that you only came in the later part of my life
Yet i so simply believed in you
The simple faith which i had brought me closer to you
i do not question i merely seek
But those are lost times
If only time is reversible
If only i can undo my wrongdoings
If only i can be a child again
A child with simple faith
A child uncorrupted by the pleasures of the world
A child who yearn only for his father always and nothing else
Yet what's happened had already happened
The moment I saw him i fell hard
I knew that this is not true love
I knew that, really, long ago
Yet somehow i can't seem to tear myself away
The further i try to escape
The more i struggle
I was filled with guilt each time i think of you
Yet what can i do?
I was falling into a bottomless pit
Which would finally suck me dry mercilessly
I can't, the more i try i can't
Strange it didn't occur to me that it was just a deception
All was a lie
Devised by the devil
Cunningly conceived and weaved
If only i knew at that time
So that i could pull myself away quick
Without me landing in this state now
I knew that there was no one else to blame except for myself
I had already closed my heart upon you
In your place is him
I was convinced that you are the past and he is the future
My heart was stone cold against you
Yet compliant towards him
How can I be so foolish?
To have been blinded so much i can't even see the truth
All the while it's there for me to understand
For you to regain your rightful place
Our bond was so easily destroyed
Just by a mere mortal which the devil had sent
How i regret my decision, the things i did
It's all too late now
I could have turned back but i didn't
Now I stand here before you
I try to seek your thoughts
Mine being so tremulous
I try to seek solace in you
Yet you face me with a seemingly nonchalent expression
But is there sorrow and hurt i see in your eyes?
I try to seek your thoughts
I took a step forward
Thinking that you will welcome me back with open arms
After all im your child
Even though ive failed you
Still, i know you love me as much as before
Plates of the earth could shift and change
But not your constant love
I thought i was dreaming a nightmare
When i saw that the step you took was away from me
You hid your face from me
But the tear on your cheek is unmistakable
You said,
"Ive given you chances,
Ive given you grace.
Yet what you have done
Had truly broken my heart."
It was then my tears fell freely
I couldn't contain them any longer
My father.. so hurt because of me
Because of my sinful ways
While i indulge in worldly desires
It didn't occur to me that
You are so hurting
I couldn't ever imagine the pain you felt
At having your daughter slipping through your fingers
I couldn't ever even comprehend your thoughts
Yet as i sob and as my body tremble
I could finally understand
You are my lord god, my father
The void in my heart can only be filled by you
Try as i might to replace you it's not possible
For you created me
You know my heart best
You love me and care for me the most
There can be no one else other than you and you only
Yet im so foolish as to run away from you
From your love and from my freedom
How i wanted for you to just give me one more chance
For me to find the right path back again
Towards you and away from my shame
Yet i know there is a limit to the number of chances you give
I know that i had since gone on a route of no return
I know that ill really be truly separated from you this time
This time i know that there could only be a few more moments left to share with you
To enjoy my last wonderful time with you
Before i would be pulled away
Away from you
Away from eternity
Away from your love your comfort your heaven
Towards my permanent toture
My final resting place
Hell, Satan's hell
Where i would be burned always for eternity
While i see the others make their way to you
I know that i would cry out for you again and again
But that would be futile
Your back would be turned
Your decision final
All that you could have done to save me you have did
It's now up to me to face the consequences

Goodbye, my saviour, Goodbye.

Romans 2:5
But because of your stubbornness and your unrepentent heart, you are storing up wrath against yourself for the day of god's wrath, when his righteous judgement will be revealed.

2 Corinthians 6:14
Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowshipcan light have with darkness?

Ephesians 6:11
Put on the full armour of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes.

Yes, God loves us and he will forgive our wrongdoings. But if we know that doing something is wrong yet we go ahead and do it then it's really sinning against God. Let's not make the Holy Spirit leave us. Instead let's walk in thriumphal procession with the Lord!

im really glad that i made the right choice. i switched from science to arts stream after the first 2 mths even knowing dat ive studied triple science in sec school and dat its a risk. i said dat im very absolutely sure dat i wun regret it and really! right now, im far from regretting my decision. im sooo relieved dat i made the switch cos i noe dat science is really not my cup of tea, its my bucket of vomit. i like lit and hist alot. haa.. both subjects are like reading stories and u respond accordingly to what the story is about. dat's so interesting. unlike science, i dun have to memorise things anymore, do calculations anymore, grapple with the many unknown and difficult to memorise names anymore. YEAH!!!

you deserve.... you deserve... you deserve... all the praise!!!!

i have to blog about this before i sleep. seriously, if i dun get this off my mind, ill not be able to sleep well. ok, i want to rant about my school. its a sucky school now that i think of it. it sucks!! through and through!!!

1) we have compulsory yoga. yes i know about the benefits of yoga and all. i am constantly reminded of it everytime i pass by the yoga notice board. "100 years old and still going strong" in which there is an old woman doing a yoga feat. the principal said that they have modified the steps until it is far from being religious. i guess alot of christians have been coming up to him and saying that they don't wan to do yoga because they are christians. so i guess this partly explains the reason why he went on to say about all kinds of anti-christ things, even after he told us not to ask him anything regarding religous matters (we are in a principle dialogue session). "if the only way to go to heaven is through one way only, den i would rather go to hell" "im a christian but i dun go to church!" "those caucasians go all the way to china to learn gong fu from the shaolin temple!" "if there is only one god as every religion says, then which is the true god? christ, the mother of christ or (sth i can't rmb) really! this is really what my principal said! ok, the reason im NOT going to do yoga is because of the origins. its devised by hindi monks. ok im not being anti-watever-religion here or being racist, its just that i can't bring myself to do it. and its not the reason the principal said too. "u mean u do this action (clasps his palms together and hold them above his head) means u're worshipping a god?"lol, its just that yoga originates from a hinhu philosophy, focusing on meditation as a path to self-knowledge and liberation. (wikipedia) yes he said that they have modified it, but still! its the origins, the ORIGINS!! now, i noe that by doing yoga, i would not be converted to hinduism and instead, it will do a lot for my health. but den, i dun wan to be unfaithful to the one whom i serve and whom i regard as my only god. my fren says," i think u all christians the perception is wrong" but i dun care, if i have to run 10 runs alone on the track while everyone else is doing yoga, let it be. heck, if i perish, i perish (what esther said!) i noe that i will be branded as a freak, a weirdo or watever names ppl can come up with, the thing is that i dun care! wat i care about is the favour of god, not the favour of others. god himself sent his son to die for me. he gave me his life. why wouldn't i dare to bear with ridicule for his sake? i will do just that, i wun have any regrets, ever. (sounds cliche BUT dat's wat i really feel)

2) students not taking chi will have to take chinese cultural studies at my school. and they force us to take a programme, which i went against at first. i went to find the head of languages and told her that i dun wan to take it becausei dun wan to listen to someone talking about feng shui or sheng chen ba zi. den she went on to talk fer 15 mins!!!!! (yes i have a watch) about wat this is just general knowledge! we're not asking u to convert, in the future these things will help u, instead of being a student with only academic knowledge, u will be equipped with the knowledge of china, which is rising up right now as the next big dynasty! if u insist on not taking den i really feel sorry for our students (undertone: we christians should not be too fussy abt everything, we should broaden our view and not just be a frog in a well) worse, she said that there will only be a small part about feng shui this kind of thing. and wat do i see, hear and touch at my first lesson? feng shui, fortune telling and more superstitious things. "using the tong shu, u can check against the dates and time of occurance when ur eyelid twitches and so u can noe what is going to happen to u." later on, the late comers have to go up to the front of the lt to get the feng shui books (they are colourfully published and there is even an eng version, no doubt they wan to try and win our hearts, their hearts yes, my heart no) i went up and i picked the book up. i flipped it open and what i saw reeeaaaallllyy puts me off. if im not in front of so many ppl, i definitely would have shouted, yes shouted, "what the heck is this???!!!!" honestly, u cannot believe what they write. 'where to place the stove in the kitchen.' obviously, i cannot shout. so i put the book down and walked off. den one of the two teachers-in-charge (she knew im a christian) said," miaozhen!" with a reprimanding tone. i just told her wo mei you xing qu. really! i noe that i sound and look as if i have attitude but i really cannot help myself. under that kind of circumstances i just said what i wanted to say. sometimes being too direct is a taboo. but i dun care. so what if the teacher take offense at me? she can't do anything. im not being rude to her, in fact im being honest with her! also, it is definitely not a wrongdoing by not taking the books. i dun wan to take, no one at all can force me, the end, period. but now i regret my decision. i should have just taken the eng version of the book and look thru it and laugh out loud at the contents and most importantly, post those really hilarious ones on my blog. im sure some ppl would want to laugh along too. and now, im not insulting any religions here. "feng shui is not religious at all! its general knowledge!" now, u can't blame me for laughing at general knowledge now, can u? (im going to borrow the book from someone in my class haha. she thinks its crap too, btw) oh and did i mention that i have to pay a freaking $84?????????????? my edusave account is left with $2 only lol. $84!!!!! my parents' hard-earned $$$!!! heartbreak!!! argh!!! nvm, god will provide. oh, this reminds me of sth my pastor said today. "who by worrying can have an hour added to his life" exactly. watever financial needs, god will supply. yeah. isn't god a wonderful god? (*chorus: yeeeeesssssssssssss!!!)

ok, its 145 am now and its mon. great. gonna need my sleep. till here, until next time... bwahahahahahaha............................... zzzzzzz.....

i fell asleep during hist lecture again!!! now dat i think of it, i dun think ive successfully kept the zzz monster away during a hist lecture, except one, just one. i think i must have been too tired. every day i have to wait till at least 1 am before i will sleep, its like i cannot sleep early unless im super tired. and the problem is dat i only get tired during the wee hours of morning den i will gladly go to sleep. and so i ended up getting less than straight 8 hours of sleep! sorry god, because of this stupid sleeping habit of mine, i always enter sleeping mode before i can even finish my chat with u. wwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There are many terms which u can use to descibe god. holy, merciful, forgiving, fatherly, giving, patient, peaceful, kind, loves us alot. however i think i wan to add another word to describe him. he's creative. just look around us and u can see god's works. heck, just look at urself in the mirror. ur eyes, nose mouth, ears.. everything, right from ur root hair to ur toenails, they are all created by god. everyone is wondefully and fearfully made in his image. he modelled us under him, so who dare to say dat he/she is ugly. u may be in the eyes of humans but the eyes of humans are not perfect. other people dun view u with a loving heart, only god does. look further within u. all the complex mechanics of ur inner body, the nervous system, digestive system, respiratory system, blood transport system. even up till today, scientists do not know the exact contents of the life-giving protoplasm. they cannot re-create this and so humans cannot recreate the origins of life. one cannot deny the fact that there must be a god who created us and who crated us with loving hands. look at the natural land where other living things coexist in intricate and delicate relationships. there are so many species of flora and fauna that we have not even discovered all of them. the different animals, all of them which hold us spellbound. we think horses are beatiful, we think lions are majestic, den aren't the one who created them even more so? the theory of the big bang, i think the people who think that its indeed true are impossible. how can so many amazing living things just pop out with a collision? and look at the earth itself, so many layers of different gases. each one there for a purpose. i dun think that just by a mere coincidence, a universe, planets, animals, plants, humans would just appear. it is so obvious that all these things are the work. he has the power to do all these things, all his work remains as evidence, still we stubborn people just could not bring ourselves to believe in his existence. we believe in ourselves, in our hard work, in the amount of effort we put in, in things which we can see.... but not our saviour. he died for us, sacrificed so much just for our sake, knowing that he would go unrecognised by ppl in the future, yet we dun see him at all. he's so real!! yet we're blind. we open our eyes big for the worldly things, things which are superficial, which we get temporary happiness from, yet we choose to close our eyes to the most obvious of the obvious.

anyway this webbie is cool, u can watch the whole service without actually being there. http://www.fcbc.org.sg/faith_sermons.asp

today is miracle sunday and the sermon is about the reality of the resurrection.

Something happened over 2000 years ago which changed the course of human history. It was the most gruesome and terrible murder that ever happened.Jesus was pinned to the cross, and not just those kind of smooth wood you see nowadays, its that kind of very coarse and rough wood with painful splinters sticking out, thus you can imagine the feeling of skin against that kind of surface. His hands were pierced by nails and pinned to the cross and he had to keep using his legs to push himself upwards otherwise he would simply suffocate. The soldiers spit at him to humiliate him. They whipped him using the kind of whip where there are hooks attached so that the hooks can tear out his flesh as the soldier lifted the whip. And then they put a cloak over him, mocking him, saying that since he proclaimed that he's the son of god, he should wear something that befitted the status of a king. But then they tore the cloak away later and imagine the pain as the material, stuck to the open fresh wounds before are torn away, new wounds were made, more blood flowed and more unimaginable pain. Also there was the crown full of spikes, not only on the exterior but also sticking into the inside. They forced him to wear that torturous crown, not by just putting it on his head, but also pushing the crown down, forcing the spikes upon the skull, piercing through, making innumerable wounds. i suppose this is what you call the 'pain exploded in his head'. The crucifixion of jesus christ was amidst many other crucifixions in the roman empire and yet why is his death particularly important?

God made he who knew no sin to become sin for us. Jesus holds the authourity over many angels in heaven, he could have just asked them to take him away, so that he didn't have to go through that entire inhumane process.But he still chose to do that, just because HE LOVES US. All our sins and our sicknesses are washed away when he died for us on the cross. (Now, sins are things which drive us from god. sins separate us from him, sins can be simple things like lying, smoking, getting addicted to whatever (food, gaming) to things like murder, immoral sexual behaviour, theft blah blah.

What good is a saviour who remains dead? On the 3rd day after Jesus was crucified, his tomb was empty upon opening (removing of the huge rock from the entrance). Now this is something to be mystified about. The battered body of Jesus was taken from the cross after he breathed his last (the Romans think that its inauspicious to leave it there) and wrapped under layers of embalmment spices and chemicals tightly. It was put in a tomb with a huge rock blocking the entrance. Roman soldiers were ordered by the authorities to guard the body (prevent jesus' disciples from stealing it) and so they were put at the entrance of the tomb.

1) The resurrection is a pragmatic fact.
The tomb of Jesus was empty. There are 2 groups of people who could have stolen the body. The Jewish or Roman authorities and the disciples.Well, if it was the former who stole the body, while Peter was preaching to the world that jesus is alive and resurrected, they could have come out and proved him wrong by producing the decaying body of jesus as evidence and as seeing how they wanted to go against jesus and his desciples, the fact that they didn't shows that they didn't steal the body! The disciples could not have stolen the body either. The tomb was being guarded by Roman soldiers of the powerful Roman empire at that time and to fail in their task was mandatory to execution at that time for the soldiers. Anyway how could any normal person have gotten past the skilful soldiers?

2) The resurrection is a psychological fact
Jesus' disciples had followed him for some years yet they disowned him. They denied that they wee his desciples, even saying that they knew not who he was. Peter, true to jesus' predictions, denied he knew jesus a total of 3 times. (anyway i noe the no 3 makes this sound like a story and not a historical fact but its not,whether u like it or not) Initially, they didn't believe that Jesus had indeed risen from the dead. They were skeptics! But then later on when they saw for themselves Jesus in flesh, they had no choice but to believe and so they went on to preach about the resurrection of Jesus to the masses, thus incurring the wrath of the roman authorities, who crucified some of them. Yet, they were still persistent that Jesus was alive amongst them all till the last breath they take. Who would risk their lives and die for a lie? Skeptics may say that the disciples preached a lie, that now, we're preaching a lie, but who would die for a lie?
You won't get 500 people hallucinating and see the same people at the same time. That's what happened. They saw him together at once.

3) The resurrection is an experiential fact
The best evidence is to experience the touch of jesus himself who is alive. Countless of people have experienced the miracle touch of Jesus. In the earlier service there are many cancer-striken people suffering from the pain that cancer brings and after the miracle healing session, they're healed completely, their pain had ceased. Examples from my church: a boy colour-blind from birth who cannot see red and orange can now see these colours. The doctor says baby megan will have a 90% chance of having down's syndrome yet God says that she will be his child, a child free from diseases. A person addicted to drugs (when asked, he said all kinds of drugs) for 7 or 8 years had kicked his addiction after going for his first service and that had continued for a few years. A chain smoker had quited in just 1 day, with the help from God. I myself had experienced his love, ask any of my secondary school friends if i was a super bad-tempered person last time, and they would undoubtedly say yes. God is the one who has changed me. No one other than Jesus could so effectively heal anyone of their sicknesses, addictions and past hurts. No one but Jesus. No other way through but through Him.
Jesus is always right beside you. Do you ever find yourself talking to no one in particular, thinking that you're talking to yourself? But all along, Jesus is the one who's always listening to you, patiently and quietly. He's not a ghost, he's a person. You can pile your frustrations, your complaints about everything (THE school principle for example) and just about anything mundane and boring onto him. Far from being disinterested, he will be so glad that for once you've acknowledged his presence, his existence. Now, you are definitely not talking to the air, Jesus is indeed around us always, so many evidences pointing towards this simple fact that Jesus is alive! yet we simply want to doubt so. They want evidences to the root of the Christian faith? Throw them onto their faces, see if they will even be able to digest it all. If Jesus is not real, if even GOD is not real, then i must be seriously crazy, all christians must be mentally disturbed, or worse, so into their imagination. What for am i blogging about them even? What for i even bother to preach the gospel, to even mention that God is real? Where does my passion for Jesus come from? Im perfectly sane and yet i choose to believe in this crap? There's only one answer, that God is indeed real and He loves you so much it hurts! God will move heaven and earth to give you the chances to know him. Who says Christians are being brainwashed? Wow then the skills of the brainwashers must be so good lol.

Sometimes we may still hurting over the death of our loved ones. This kind of hurt, you can try to bury it deep in your heart and pretend that you're hurting no more. You can try to forget it, to say convincingly to yourself that you have indeed gotten over it. But, let me be frank, all kinds of hurts, whether its physical,psychological or emotional, only God can heal. Only He can truly make us 'get over it'. Only he is able to do so. No matter how deep the hurt runs, He can remove it. Claim his love and receive it in the name of jesus. Faith as small as a mustard seed is enough to experience his love... and his healing.

Once again, im proud that i know god (but that doesn't mean ill criticise the religions of other ppl). im not ashamed of him, of jesus. and im so glad that im his child. hallelujah!!!

i dun really know wat to write about but im still posting one anyway...

Good friday. went to west coast to play. had treasure hunt and water games. they made us run about under the hot sun! and i got a bit dizzy cos of the heat. (no! i must toughen up!) the water games r fun. i was the KING of my group den they had to wrap me up using newspapers. i looked so them* funny haha.

why is it so difficult to receive jesus into our hearts? is it because we dun really want to commit ourselves to someone else? is it because we don't noe if jesus really exists as the son of god? is it because we want to be in control of our lives, once we say that we have received christ, we will be stuck for good and everything we do will be without fredom, always under close scrutiny? or is it that all of these reasons keep us from making that first step. sure being a christian will mean that u will be persecuted ("what only christians can go to heaven?") and that u will have to go to service and cell each week, and that u have to sacrifice your leisure time sometimes to go to church events. i hated all these things at first. i didn't understand why do i have to do all these things and what for do i make these commitments, its not like people will praise me and i will get a prize. at that time, i dread going to service. i think its boring and its all the same, the things they preach, can't they have some creativity? ha now i noe how foolish had i been. sure there r some people who call themselves christians and yet they say they dun go to church. leaving the case of jehovah's witness aside, i dun think that that is the right way. there r no stand-alone christians. after u admit that u believe in jesus, u will go on a journey of love with god and in this journey, u will either backslide or forge on ahead, there wun be anything like staying at the same spot. i hav a spiritual sister who backslided by quite a bit and rite now, i dun noe if she still wans to follow god. im really sad over this. also i heard from ah ma kelly dat a pastor in our church totally withdrew from the church. she sort of quited, like she doesn't want anything to do with the church or god or christianity anymore, all that because of a guy, a non-christian guy. and she thinks that a person is more important than God? she's seriously deluded.anyway i dun think my church is boring. each worship session is like a rock concert, i get even higher den when i was at my favourite band mayday's concert. the sermon, yes i admit that i fall asleep sometimes but who wouldn't when they're tired? and when u're really fired up for god, u do things really differently, like when i encounter a problem, i will ask myself wat would jesus do? he probably will take the initiative and take up the job which nobody wants to do (sai gang). and im glad that ive been given the chance to know god, by some kind of his plan, i ended up in girls' brigade and thru there i knew god, im glad that i accepted him easily into my heart, i dunno if its cos im humble or dat im craving for his love, perhaps its a mix of both, still im glad that i took the chance. and recently i just had my breakthrough. because of some happenings, my faith in him grew stronger, i think its stronger than ever. i noe that really, whatever happens, it is all in his plans, and which father will give his child a stale fish, or even a leftover fish? of course jesus will give me the best fish/chicken/beef/prawn/sotong ever. its the same with which school i go to, which uni i go to, which man i marry bla bla. i think that even if sth really tragic happens, i will still believe in him. u think that im foolish. i think i hav a part of god's wisdom. also if u have been given a chance to know god and yet ur pride, ur unwillingness to commit ur life to him or whatever crappish reason u can think of gets in the way, den when the time comes, regrets r too late. i suppose those old ppl who never had the tiniest chance to know god, they had no choice but fer those who again and again pushed god away, i think god wil say,"who r u? i dun know u." u hav been given the chance but its u who've made the choice, there's no one else to be blamed but u alone. i feel exhilarated every time before i go to service. there's this indescribable joy in my heart. i wish dat i could share this joy with all other ppl but i noe that that's unlikely. heaven, hell, satan, jesus this kind of thing, the fewest of the few ppl of this era would believe in that.that's the sad part. god would move heaven and earth to want you to know him, through the things he arranged and all, yet there'e nth he can do if we have hearts as hard as stones. i want to share abt my god so much but yet what's holding me back is the fact that ppl would think im a RELIGIOUS freak. may i correct them that christianity is NOT a religion 2000 yrs ago? there wasn't even such a word like religion at that time! everyone just noes that there is one god and yet ppl, the ppl whom god loves yes, they want to defy him and so out came the world's first alternative god, an ox. how strange can man be? y would ppl wan to worship an animal? anyway, onli god and jesus can pass judgements on ppl, so im in no place at all to say that you you you wat wat wat. i shall end here.

God is around us. u can talk to him, complain to him, pile ur frustrations onto him, just dun ignore him. he's heartbroken each time u push him out of your mind.

anyway harry potter and the deathly hallows!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can't wait to get it. im going to be at pop first thing in the morn on that day. yahhooo!!!!!!!!

went to try out the rbs grand prix challenge today and my timing sucks. at least i got to try it and it's fun, though there really is no difference compared to playing at the arcade, except u get to sit in a cockpit of a life-size f1 car. all ppl who tried it out got a free water bottle yeah!

Jesus stands at the door of your heart
He's waiting for you to receive him
And His unwavering love
He loves you so much he doesn't want to coerce you
And so the only option is to wait, very patiently
Sins drive us from Him
Jealousy, rage, lust
Also the doubt in us
People question about the historical existence of Jesus
Is He really a person who had once stepped upon the earth of this world
Or is He just another elusive and imagined god?
Incredibility makes Him seem so unreal
How can such amazing love exists
Is there even perfectness at all
Or is everything just lies set up by the hoodwinked community of people who call themselves Christians?
In this present age lots of deceptions run amok
Yet slowly people will accept these deceptions as a norm
The only people standing
They are the ones who truly know and love Jesus
They are the ones who will never indulge in sinful pleasures
And they will never give in to Satan's temptations
For they know the truth
The truth which the devil seeks to hide from God's children
Which is revealed only to people who accept Christ as their saviour
The meaning of the cross
Foolishness to those who are perishing
Yet the ultimate truth for those who are being saved
As times grow old, as eras pass
Will the truth just be muffled and be covered by malicious lies?
That there is no Jesus
That all religions are true
That gods live in idols
That all gods are real
That there is no one around who truly loves us
Equally and unconditionally
At that time the world will be chaotic
People will turn against each other
Nations will rise against nations
It's ironic that the one person who can save us
Is the one whom we condemn