http://www.christianpost.com/article/20070723/28572_Taliban_Again_Extends_Deadline_for_Korean_Christian_Hostages.htm

God will do righteous.

i can't believe i only finished reading the book on sunday. kill me. i was feeling a bout of dizziness on sat and i had to go all the way to pasir ris for sth so i didn't get to spend even a few solid hours reading the book. but all the better, so the time for me to know the ending would seem to be lengthened, and the anticipation in me would still be growing strong.

CAUTION!! SPOILERS AHEAD!!

this book is distinctly different from the rest of the 6 books. however, as the books should get darker progressively, i don't think this book is the darkest. whereas in the past, voldemort seemed to be elusive and to harry, he's like this big, powerful, scary and mysterious enemy. but in the HALLOWS, harry had grown to be even more attached to voldemort's soul and he saw more and more 'visions' belonging to voldemort. towards the end, he could even choose to see voldemort's mind and he finally learned to close his mind against the dark lord. in a way, harry knew what voldemort's up to and he could counteract against whatever he was plotting and also know what is it that voldemort wants exactly.

the deathly hallows.. whoever has them could defeat death, which means to say he's invincible, second to none. there was the symbol of it on xeno's robes, on the cover of the book dumblesdore willed to hermione and carved onto a wall of the durmstrang's school. it was on the orange china-made paper bag which came together with the book too. the stick represents the elder wand, the circle the ressurection stone and the triangle the invisibility cloak. harry had already had the cloak and it was unique to no other. the other two hallows seemed at first to be impossible to exist to ron and hermione but harry kept thinking about it. when he was generating ideas about where are their locations and the possibility that dumbledore wanted to lead him to possession of all three hallows, he became like another person, uncompletely alike to harry at all. he bacame obsessed with the hallows and even thought that this two companions are being obsessed with the horcruxes when he was, actually, the one who was obsessed with the unnecessary, which is the desire for power and invincibility, as did dumbledore when he was his age. his deductions were right, that voldemort's after the elder wand and that he himself might have already possessed of the stone. but fortunately, he was brought back down to earth later, helped by hermione's ever practical mind. it was a good thing, for if harry had been carried away further, he would have become like many of the many historical wizards before him, who spilled blood just for the sake of the dangerous elder wand.

these are my votes for the various scenes..

most favourite scene:
when voldemort finally died and all the people present at the great hall erupted into cheers of pure jubilation. finally, voldemort has met his end. finally, no more bloodshed and fear for the wizarding community. the dark lord has finally, at long last, been vanquished by the destined boy, the boy who lived. but i was still a bit disappointed when there wasn't a part whereby voldemort realised his mistakes, where he went wrong. he just plopped dead like that, without any knowledge of his errs and any understanding of love and remorse, which was what he lacked, right till the end of his life which he so treasured.

most touching scene:
when snape, just before he was about to die, he wanted to look at lily evans, before he could not do so any longer, just for the last time. and he told harry," Look... at... me...", for the only part of harry with his mum's trace was his brilliant green eyes. that's like so touching! although i didn't know why he said that at first, but after the pensieve scene of snape's thoughts came, i was reminded of the last words of snape.

most heart-lifting scene:
the drastic change in Kreacher. he actually became a real house-elf for once, doing all the housework and taking care of the 3 as good as he can. to see such an incorrigible and beyond-hope being turn into someone brand new, it's definitely a bright cheer to the otherwise gloomy prospects facing the trio. he also wore sth clean, instead of hanging on to his old and dirty rag! also, quite amusingly, he led the elves of hogwarts into the battle with voldemort's dark forces. that's quite comical too. haha..

scene with the most anticipation:
the one when dumbledore came to talk to harry in his mind, when harry thought they were at king's cross. voldemort had just killed his second last horcrux, the part of his soul which was clinging onto harry's. it was also when harry could choose to leave with dumbledore and 'board the train', instead of returning to the battlefront. im not clear on what had just happened and adding on to this, there was the unknown still out there, waiting for harry to come around and go back to reality.

the most fast-paced, exciting scene:
the one whereby harry was captured by greyback and some snatchers back to the deatheaters' base, the malfoy's home. voldemort was coming back swiftly, and harry still had to defeat the deatheaters and save his friends. time seemed to be priceless and what's worse, hermione was being tortured by bellatrix using the cruciatius curse.

the most anti-climatic scene:
nineteen years later. everything was normal and serene. but it was too normal and serene. no mention of any further thoughts regarding voldemort. peaceful and tranquil. yet i was itching to know more about harry's past, the intervening years before the book very abruptly fastforwarded to nineteen years later. so much rowling didn't mention and i felt that it wasn't enough. oh well.

most miserable and upsetting scene:
when ron left harry and hermione just like that, leaving them behind in the mission they promised to undertake together and running off to somewhere comfortable himself. and for the next few weeks, harry and hermione were in the depths of their gloom, with the fall-out of ron like that.

most surprising scene:
when it was revealed through sanpe's memories that he had, in fact, loved lily evans long before james met her, when they were both children. that's like so shocking. and i thought, from the ORDER that he hated her when he called her a mudblood. what a dramatic turn in the linkages batween characters. so unlikely.

most heart-warming scene:
when harry used the ressurection stone and brought back his parents, sirius and lupin. their presence alone gave him courage and he didn't even need patronuses to pass the dementors.. it's like they stuck to him until the end, and didn't stop giving harry their support, letting him know that he's not alone..

who died in the end? in order of deaths..

mad-eye (well, i dun feel any affection for him in the first place, so..)
hedwig (though she seemed to be the first)
dobby (i cried when he died)
fred (oh no, what about the weasley's wizarding wheezes?)
tonks and lupin (poor teddy lupin for being an orphan so early)

GREATEST DISAPPOINTMENT with the final book..
i was expecting a more tragic ending, one with harry dying and so he and ginny couldn't get together and she had to live with that sadness for the rest of her life. it's depressing, should the book end off tragically. but this is a book which i had thought to be dark and twistful... never did i think it could be twisted into such a happy ending. yeah, ppl still died, but harry and his company still managed to lead happy lives of their own! i guess, it being a children's book initially and primarily...and they lived happily ever after still applies..

king lear is.... throughout almost the entire play, i dun have an inkling of wat they're talking about.. that's british accent and old shakespearen english for you.. but the story is indeed a tragedy, it moved me, just short of having my tears..

cell sisters had street blessing on fri, big clash with my king lear play. yucks, why can't the play be like on sat, so i can go too. heard from kelly ah ma that shermaine and the others prayed for some jjc students at choa chu kang and they received Christ. i am so excited. must find out who they are...

priscilla said that i look as though im a twenty-yr old on fri, and im glad that just for once i can look mature, but the moment i open my mouth and do those funny expressions then the game is up.. haha.. but it sure was interesting to see the others all dressed up. =)

common test is coming real soon and i really dun wan to do last min work. to finish reading 19 chapters of great expectations and the whole of the portrait are already killing me, i just can't find the time to read them, and there are 2 other h2 subjects too.

argh, can't stand it anymore. 230 in the morn already, and i even have to wake up at 615 fer HARRY POTTER!!!! omg, how can anyone contain the excitement!! im just going to squeal together with ro when we finally lay our hands on the book.

ok, i really have to blog about this. this is like so maddening.

apparently someone has already leaked out BOOK 7 to the internet. He has an advanced copy of it and photographed it, sent the pictures to bittorrents. and ppl can already check who is the one who died exactly.

and at first i didn't believe it! i thought how can it be when according to time mag, they went as far as to print the books in the dark so no one would read them! but then it's really true.. they reported it on reuters news:

http://www.straitstimes.com/Video+News/Entertainment/STIVodcast_2201.html?playid=2201&type=Top

poor jk rowling.. but i suppose all original creators of any forms of work have to suffer this depressing thing.. but somehow i feel more for them now dat my HARRY POTTER has been violated.. who is that person who leaked it out? what can he/she get? money from bitstorrent? well, i got a copy of it too, the first ten chapters, from a friend. and im definitely not going to read it at all!!

RESPECT JK ROWLING!!!! and come on, unless u're really poor and have to live on biscuits and water every day, there is no such excuse as saying u dun have money to buy the book! save up if u have the sincerity! and no one can deny that it feels a lot better when u're actually holding the book in ur hands, which is smelling of sweet new printed paper and when u can actually experience the sheer thickness of the book. the feeling is different than when u read on the screen!

21st JULY! i can read the whole of the book now but im not going to! wat a disgrace to a HARRY POTTER fan, to even start reading it later than the others.. maddening.. argh!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

went back to nhhs today with some others to get o level cert. thank God they still haven't sent them to moe yet. haha..

HARRY POTTER movie is not as nice as i expected. well, it's weird from the beginning when the thickest book is made into the shortest HP film. they ended up cutting alot of happenings and some things are distorted too, like how they said cho chang was the one who betrayed them all cos umbridge forced her to drink the truth potion. that's like so far from the plot! and i think they could have done better with the department of mysteries scenes.. why can't they shoot more scenes, it's like a bit abrupt, after they reached the place den immediately the glass spheres came to view.. they could have navigated a bit rite, after all it's not an easy place to get into.. however the scene whereby harry went crazy after bellatrix killed sirius is well portrayed, although i think most of the credit goes to the good acting skills of daniel himself. my heart went out to him when he shouted like that, ha.. the scene when all the glass spheres fell on them, i was wowing silently to myself, it's like so majesty! nice.. but i was disappointed when harry didn't lose his temper at dumbledore, i wanted to see that! and dat scene is so short too.

the atmosphere of the movie is quite well portrayed, though it'll be better if they could lengthen the movie and include more things..

back to doing eom, what a pain..

going to watch HARRY POTTER movie on tuesday with ivy, yanzhen, jiahui and shihui. too bad the others can't make it. well, im much more excited abt friday and saturday!! all h2 lit students are going to watch the KING LEER play at the esplanade. and what's even cooler is that king leer is played by the same man as gandalf and magneto!! but then this means i cannot make it fer cell. then just the next day, when the morning has just began, im going to buy my copy of HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHYLY HALLOWS!! these two days will be great, esp sat. omg, the excitement.

i have decided to fast on the computer. no more using of my com at all, except for pw. i wrote this post in the school library lol. if i don't do this, i can pretty much predict my common test results.

gp mock test later on.. econs mock test on friday.. guess ill have to study fer econs first.

i can't believe there are people like that. and they are supposed to be her close frens in school!!

this is what happened to caiyun. she wanted to pray for two of her frens, about the blessings which they need. but then they ended up arguing with each other about various things.

they told her about alot of things which challenged the christian faith. like they brought up that chain mail abou the sinking of the titanic ship. that God sank the ship just to show that He indeed could do sth like dat, when one of the crewmen said that even God can't sink the ship. then they said why did God created humans then destroyed them so unflinchingly, so cruelly?

then they also challenged caiyun.. asking where is God? what are the evidences that prove his existence.. and what are the proof that heaven and hell exist.. all these questions.. even those questions which we ourselves dun think about.. they seem to take that period of time as some kind of shoot-her-down session.. caiyun didn't know how to answer them.. and i know that secretly they're laughing at her humility. i am downright pissed for the sake of one of my closest frens.

jc students.. i thought they should be more mature? i thought they should know the line between jokes and cutting remarks? and do they even know the meaning of eq?

granted.. they are from nj, where all the smart and studious reside.. and they've done some research of religions on their own.. but to think they even told caiyun to send the most knowledgable person to discus with them, to see if he'll be able to convince them even.. i could do no more than sweatdrop and let my jaws drop to the ground. i honestly can't believe they could be people who would say that.. i mean.. even if u think all the things about God is great.. God answers prayers.. religious and christianity stuff are stupid.. u would think twice about holding them in rite.. because there is such a thing as ampathy.. and i really can't bring myself to not tell them to go eat shit when i heard about it.. i mean.. i know there are and there will always be people who are not going to turn towards religions. ever. but to say all that hurting things.. i feel for caiyun, i really do.. if its me, i know i can shoot them down also. ive not been a christian myself till sec 3. so i have my fair share of doubts too, like them. but there are eye-witness accounts.. of plenty of miraculous things.. like near-death experiences.. of people encountering God Himself.. and of all the miraculous work and healing done in His name.. i mean.. aren't those evidences?

throughout our whole lives.. there are clues.. subtle hints from God.. to tell us gently that Hey I've been here all this while.. Why are u ignoring me? Why do u think me as sth out of ppl's imagination and lies? He gives us opportunities to accept Him... dats what those eye-witnesses' accounts are for! he let ppl see His work.. see jesus himself even.. so that they would be testimonials, proving to skeptics the very thing which they've been evading for since like forever, that God is real. and He's certainly not a bad god who humour himself by making us suffer, by seeing us in pain.

actually.. im not pissed now, as compared to ytd, when im using what little self-control i have to not yell curses right there in rachel's dad's car. (actually, i can't bring myself to curse, ill probably just tell them to go dunk their heads in shit) i realise that there are worse ppl than these examples and if i would get angry at everyone of these ppl i meet, then i probably would die young out of high blood pressure.

anw, i can sort of ampathise with them, meaning skeptics.. since i was one myself years ago.. when i was in gb and when the officers shared Christ with us and when we prayed. i was one of those girls who rolled my eyes at the things which i think are stupid and ridiculous.. and i was the one who kept thinking we're praying to the air.. when im used to praying at the alter to unfeeling idols for all my life..

we people get so intellectualall the time.. whil we're growing up.. we think of alot of things.. like where do life originates.. the universe.. different solar systems.. why do they exist in the first place? even our surroundings are weird in a way if u study them closely.. if we stop to think and look around us.. there r actually alot of things which can be questioned about.. even our own bodies.. so intricate and so.. made for survival.. all the organs are like fine pieces of art and science combined.. so complex yet so delicate.. to think that there is no one, no one at all who created all these.. this then, is the greatest mystery..

self-denial.. that's a state all of us are in..

ha.. common test. common test.. common test..

we had a short period of interaction during hist lecture today and it was fun. think because of that the otherwise really boring hist lecture which is about fundamentalism turned into something intersting for once. the points which got us hyped up are that in the Bible, God says that should a brother dies and leaves behind his widow then the living brother should marry his sister-in-law. looking at this, even i find it weird and sick. but apparently God meant for the person to look after and to take care of his brother's widow and for convenience's sake, to marry her. this is what mdm koh said, which i suppose is right because otherwise it doesn't make sense.

then mdm koh said that she read a book last time which really convinced her that christianity is stupid. it's writtedn by a philosopher whose name she's forgotten. the philosopher, for all his life, have been trying to convince people not to turn towards God and Christianity then he provided them with a whole lot of reasons why they shouldn't. then the irony is that sjust before he died, he accepted the lord and became a Christian. people felt betrayed because he's actually like some sort of traitor to do that. His reason to become a christian? it might be that he's actually afraid of going to hell and he wanted to go to heaven, that's his reason, which i think is even more stupid than all the falsehoods he'd been claiming all his life. then the ball just sort of started rolling and mdm koh revealed that she's a christian. and then hz asked if mdm koh thinks that the theory of heaven and hell is naive. that got people hyped up and i joined in, asking her if she became a christian just because she's afraid of going to hell and not heaven. then she said yes, lol. and i asked further if she believed in the bible and what makes her believe the bible. i admit that if it was another teacher, i would not have dared to ask such questions. but it was mdm koh, the teacher whom everyone loves and absolutely adores and who is like our friend whom we could talk to about anything. ha, so i figured she woudn't mind. she didn't want to answer our questions though, saying that we should take it outside of the lecture should we want to continue discussing with her about religious stuff.

ha, after that i saw hz telling mdm koh that he's not being against christianity when he's saying that he thinks the heaven and hell belief is naive then he further asked mdm koh if she thinks what the bible preaches is stupid (sth like that) adn i hate to disappoint him that much as her would like to find someone who has the same views as him, mdm koh said yes cos she was obliged to do so. it wouldn't be wise to disagree on such a sensitive issue as seeing how he was so agitated about stating his stand. then i chatted with her for a short while. she's actually been going to a church to another and i asked her to come to my church and i think she found the venue (expo) is inconvenient. then i told her that God has a church for her and that jumping around churches are no good. then she said with that lovable smile of hers that this is something personal with her and God. but at least she believes in Jesus and that's what matters. oh my, why am i blogging abt a teacher???

there is evidence that heaven exists and no, i don't believe it either that only christians can go to heaven. then wouldn't those ppl who never had the chance to know God in their entire lives be like destined to go to hell? no, that would be unfair and God is someone who judges fairly. and who says that even people who call themselves christians can go to heaven? not if u're a faker and a sunday christian who is not true even to his feelings towards God. the gateway to heaven is small, even if u believe in Jesus Christ. heaven and hell exist and there's no way in between. somehow i think i sort of understand why hz said that this belief is naive. it's like saying that all things are black and white and there's no in between. yeah.. but as i said.. God is the fairest judge u can even get and he knows exactly what we did in our entire lives.

played badminton for like the 2nd time in my whole life today.. think it's quite fun.. ha.. going to cell tmr. the time is earlier than usual though, looking forward to meeting up with my sisters.

HARRY POTTER!!!! 21st JULY!!! im much moer excited abt the book than the movie. im gonna finish the book on the first day. after i read it i will re read it until im satisfied. but i think between the first reading and the sec reading there would be a long interval.. think the ending is really going to be impactful.. must need some time to digest..

the 100k blessing...

it's a nation-wide movement to bless the people around us. and by the people around us, they can be anyone we know. they may not be someone whom we know closely and they may not be even someone we know. whoever God leads us to, we'll do it. even if it's someone whom we dislike or have no relevant topics with.

this 100k thingy is not a scheme by the church to con people into going to church and then further con them into donating their hard-earned money which could otherwise be used to buy worthy things such as cds. i know that there are indeed christians who are over-enthusiastic in their invitations to ppl for them to go visit their church. i know that there are cases are 'christians' who use the name of God and the cover of the church to extort money from unknowing people. i know that people simply do not just suddenly out of the blue believe in someone whom they cant even remotely identify with, furthermore, that someone is like the empty air.


and i know too that people are just not interested in 'this kind of stuff'. and by 'this kind of stuff', they mean it as religious and extremistic. generally, people think different religions have different viewpoints and so they, who stand on the neutral sides, naturally think that they have no need at all to speak of to turn to a religion for spiritual guidance. unless something really tragic and unfortunate strikes them, they would forever be sitting on the fence, having their own freedom in their own world which their will and the rest of the world governs what they do.


this 100k thing is not just about 500o ppl going around and seeing that they like the sight of this person or seeing that this person seem gullibble then they decide to try their 'luck' and give it a shot, to see if this person would fall into their traps, just one of the many many activities the church have every year so that unsuspecting people and people who have no minds of their own would be conned into.


would anyone believe that we genuinely want to just simply bless people? yes, we are in no postitions to bless people since we dun hold that much of a power. it is god whose heart is always for the needy and poor who led our church into this 100k blessing. and we are not asking for 20 blessings each either. God is visiting this nation and by that i mean that the kingdom of God is near Singapore. ask other christians and they too would say this since all 120 and sth churches in singapore are currently praying for the revival of singapore.

there can be needy and poor people around us and u wun even know it. it might even surprise u to find out that ur close fren has been hiding a dark secret which he can't tell anyone. well, that sounds dramatic but what i mean is that people, even people at our young age, can have problems of their own. whether be it family or relationship problems. these could be things which they dun want other ppl to know, things they would rather hide and solve themselves.


sometimes it's just difficult to ask for help. we humans are just soooooo prideful. pride just gets in the way of alot of things.. no one is going to think dat this person is weak cos he asked for help.. on the contrary i think they might even see it as a good thing since coping up all ur sad/angry/hard feelings is like making a fiery volcano, which is just waiting for the time to explode and shock everyone. well, i may be unrealistic as most ppl would confide in their closed frens should they have a problem or they have sth unhappy to talk abt..

well. let me say sth which is the plain truth but ppl just think nothing of it.

u can't see God.. He doesn't even talk.. so how are u going to be convinced that He does exist?


have you heard or read about any near-death experiences in which the victims went to heaven and saw for themselves a bright light?

have u heard of any stories like God giving miracles to the people who are so desperately in need?


have u heard of many miracles and healing done by God..


there are evidences proving His existence and He's greatness... but ppl dun just want to be called a fool having blind faith, which is believing in sth which ppl can't see, which has subtle means of staying hidden. also, for what reasons should they turn to a religion? dat would be like not so cool and they would be like different from the people they hang out with..


well, if God can be seen by ppl so easily then there would be alot of ppl dying every day. and if ppl believed in God because they could see Him, there is real, concrete proof that He is indeed around us, then wouldn't ppl be going to heaven always and then salvation would be like not sth precious anymore... ha, i guess i dun make much sense to non-believers....


ok, the 100k blessing = free prayers for ppl who have needs in their lives. for a month, we would be praying every single day for the ppl who accepted God's blessings. and it's totally free. and u have nth to lose. and it doesn't matter if u dun believe in God because we're the ones who believe in Him and we're the ones who asked u in the first place. so, yeah.


the blessings available (sounds like a menu)


1) health
2) protection
3) inner peace
4) family harmony
5) financial freedom
6) progress in career
7)friendships and relationships
8) wisdom and intelligence
9) direction for the future
10) forgiveness
11) eternal life
12) fullness of the holy spirit


hmm, the last 2 points make no sense whatsoever to most ppl. anw, the point is that it's free (singaporeans seem to think that they have to give some sort of things in return for this unreal and weird gestures). no strings attached. much as we would like to, we would not bug or force the entire kowledge of the bible onto u. just to bless, what is there to be suspicious about?


common test is coming. we students at jj really have it good. an entire month later than our peers. is dat good or bad? i honestly dunno.

i

have

something

amazing

to share....

so are the rest of the

5716 warriors...

this feeling
i can't put it in words.

hey, my frens and everyone who reads this blog...

God exists.

you can talk to Him anytime and anywhere u want.

since He's always around us.

HE LOVES YOU

AND THERE'S NOTHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT.

period.

just reached home from ed silvoso conference.. was sleeping for like the first 10 mins cos i really couldn't take it.. slept late again the night before just to watch bleach..had a long talk with a fren into the wee morning.. this is wat i wan to say to him,

Dear brother...
hey, if u're feeling terrible now because of the various issues, why dun u try casting all ur frustrations/worries/agonies onto God? u may feel that u're unworthy to do so because in a way, u've sinned against him, but what i wan to say is that God definitely doesn't think so, even if u've sinned, he still loves u, and who doesn't do wrong things once in a while anw? all the small worries u have, even if u think they are too insignificant to bother God with, God doesn't think so. He loves for us to just talk to him about our thoughts, inner feelings and those secrets which we can't tell anyone at all, even our best fren. He created us because He loves us, remember? Even before He created the universe and everything.. He had in his mind, our best interests. He thought of us already even bofore He made the blue skies, the shining stars and all the other wonderful works of nature u see around us. so, whenever u're feeling down, feel free to tell him about what's upsetting u. u're not bothering Him at all. Which father doesn't like his child to trust Him enough to be able to tell them just about everything. but even if u dun, He still knows what's in ur mind anw..

about that issue which u're troubled over. i dun know how to advice u as seeing Im not that wonderous as God Himself. what i can tell u, though, is that pls, u dun have to feel ashamed towards Him. there are distractions preventing u to really trust Him with all ur life and u know that too. rmb, u cannot serve 2 or more Gods at the same time. girlfren, studies, money etc... i ask of u to really pray... and by really pray, i mean really really really cast away all ur inhabitations, ur fears of showing ur weak side, ur unbeliefs and doubts. we've always been so busy with everything, i think it's extremely befitting to dedicate some of our time to Him and Him alone. Focus on Him.. the fact that He died for us when He doesn't need to at all, go back to the meaning of the cross. whatever that is stopping u from going all out to trust Him it's ok to be frank with Him after so much time of 'not bothering' Him. and always remember, trust Him like He trust u... faith plays an important role in the christian life, it's about believing in sth/someone whom u can't see or feel, using our five senses. yes.. u may call it blind faith, just as others who dun understand call it. but aren't all the evidences such as testimonials and real life experiences convincing? it's inevitable that we may doubt Him and even His existence at times when we're still new to this new life... that's when we question ourselves, r we really following the real god? or r we just like fools, being held by leashes by the church? at these times, i know it's difficult to continue.. who ever said that being a Christian is easy? a lot, a large number of people went the other way round because of this. they chose to follow their ownselves. freedom to them is being able to do whatever they want if they felt like it, without any inhabitations... but my dear brother... u and i know that that's not true freedom at all. we dun have to explain to others/ppl who r skeptics why we believe in God and Jesus.. there's no need to. since we hold the truth in our hearts, we know that nothing matters, really, compared to the one who loves us so much, with such a perfect love that no one can comprehend...

pray often... for the things bothering u.. just about anything u can pray for. and by praying it simply means talking to God. and about the holy spirit speaking to us thingy which we ppl from charismatic church keep talking about? i know that u're somehow freaked out by charismatic churches because of past bad experiences.. but wat i wan to tell u is that.. yes. there exists a holy spirit and it's true He speaks to us. He doesn't go "BOOM BOOM BOOM SO-AND-SO..." because that's just not the way to it. He'll just make us die of heart attacks soon after. we want God to speak to us so much, or we just want a sign from Him, a response, to show us that He's indeed listening, the truth is we are really caught up with doing our own things that we seldom and rarely quiet our hearts down and focus our attention on Him alone.. dun be stressed/pissed because u're sick of the 'U will tear when u experience God's presence' thingy... just know that even if u've prayed for a hundred years without receiving any responses at all from Him... it doesn't mean that He doesn't love u or He thinks u're unworthy compared to other ppl or He wants to turn away form u cos u've sinned so much. no, it's not. i ask of u to trust Him. respect Him and fear Him, yes, but know that He's our father too, and also He's the best fren all of us would ever have.. He's not empty air or someone imaginery... God is someone who wants our love just as He loves us. When we truly love Him, all other things really just pales in comparison... studies.. results.. career.. everything, anything... non-believers dun understand why we always put God as our top priority.. they may even think it's foolish to say that one's passion is for GOD. but we know for ourselves what we know.

thus.. hold on tight to Him! trust Him... pray until u get an answer from Him. im sure.. 100% sure.. that GOD ANSWERS PRAYERS.. dun be dismayed and may ur faith in Him be strong...

btw.. i repeat myself.. i am not a fundamentalist (lol). it's true that i think the times centuries ago are better as in less immoral.. but i dun want the present times to go back either because dat's just the way it is. nothing could be done to reverse time or the hearts of human beings.. we change over time and that's a hard fact we just have to accept..

God just reminded me that He is indeed a good God. For a long while now, i've been liking the song 'Beautiful Saviour' and i've been wondering would our church ever worship God using this song. i thought that it would be really wonderful if i could sing this song in church, along with everyone else. cos i really like the simple lyrics and its real soothing tune. then, last week when i saw that we're going to sing this song, i was so thrilled! ha, it may not seem important to someone else but to me, i thought that God does things so brilliantly. He had me yearning for sth then just out of the blue, He presented me with it. ha, i feel like im so easily satisfied. that's good, keeps me happy all the time. bwahaha..

btw, i finally found 2 other ppl in jjc who are also from fcbc!!!!! woohooo!!!! one of them is in my group acts during the youth camp. there is no such thing as coincidence and God is so good to let me know ppl from the same family who are also in jjc. before that, i was hoping that i could meet at least one. i even thought that there are no others in jjc from fcbc too, since it's located in the west and it being such an anti-christ school. really glad. ha....

it's 130 in the morning now and i haven completed the other half of my eom. idiotic pw. yoga lesson starts this friday. going to hand in a parent's letter. they couldn't possibly force me to do yoga! i may seem extremistic but it's all for Him who gave up so much for us and who suffured persecutions a million times worse. never will i compromise! however much they 'modify' it, it's still about meditating... yea, call me crazy . if so, then u're saying that God is crazy too. haha..

btw, i really dun like the Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man. from the beginning to the end, the idea of God is portrayed in such a way that He's unmerciful, unforgiving and a killjoy who likes to be sadistic and force ppl to be serious and pious all the time. He's like so forceful and serious in the book! a friend said that he thinks the things about God are stupid. if ive not known God, i would too think that it's idiotic. ha.. but the truth lives on forever in my heart. i can't fling it away that easily after i know for sure myself that He's real!

countdown to harry potter and the order of the phoenix movie - 8 days.
countdown to harry potter and the deathly hallows (oh my..) - 17 days.

compulsory yoga for everyone, in my dear school, jurong junior college. and i've made my stand very clearly before, that i will never never never compromise. i will not give in to this compulsory thing, not because i want to find trouble, i want to rebel, i want to attract attention, i want to act holy, but because i want to make a stand for God. people wun understand what is so bad about yoga, it has so much health benefits and it's so much more relaxing than the usual pc we have, and it is not religious at all! they think we christians are just too strict. they wun envy us, because to them, we seem like we have so much restrictions, so many things that we cannot do. they think," what a tough life to lead if you're tied down to a religion, especially christianity. i would rather be a free man and i will take charge of my own life, what a carefree life that will be."

honestly, when i hear that we cannot do yoga, i was skeptical. but then later when i knew that yoga was created by the hindu monks centuries ago as a sort of meditation exercise i knew that i simply cannot bring myself to do it. yes, all that talk about how they've modified it.. it all comes down to this, they just dun get it why must we kick up such a fuss. do then do la, what's the problem.. u all christians.. sth wrong with your perception, nth wrong with yoga wat... sometimes, i get swayed by what the world thinks, and i even doubt if i really want to stand by my own belief. Yet, i cannot deny that God is not real and that the whole thing about jesus dying for us on the cross is a lie in itself. i know that God is indeed real and He's closer to us than we could ever imagine. knowing this, how can i bear to go the other way round. others seek their own ways to heaven, others dun believe in heaven at all, and i can't think the same way too cos i know it in my heart that God is for real and not an illusion. i cannot bring myself to go with the flow.. and i have to find some way not to participate in it. i know that others will think dat if im not a christian den i wun have these kind of troubles. well, the thing is im glad that i have these kinds of troubles. it brings me much closer to God. Jesus suffered persecutions way more serious than these long ago. Yet he went on with His strong belief in God and since God is with Him, no one can be against Him.

my school has compulsory yoga. everyone has to do it, no exceptions they say. but since God brought me to this school, He will bring me through it all.

gb and bb enrolment service today. oh, it's so nolstalgic! sarah is an officer already!woohoo! also, a girl from nhh 69th coy received christ today! sth really important we learnt is that u could never tell who are the persons around you who are having problems. they may look very normal on the outside but u could never tell if they cry secretly at night. sometimes they just can't someone to whom they can pour they heart out. these people, they cry out for some form of release and they seek a person whom will just bother to listen and even understand what they're going through. and God will give them that chance to just know Him.

being in the choir during the worship session seems so fun! im definitely going to join when the next opportunity comes. yiling says that when u're up there and looking down at all the teenagers worshipping God together, the feeling is so awesome no words can describe it..

harry potter's 7th and final book is coming so very soon! AHHH.. i can't wait! im going to buy it first thing in the morning and im going to finish it in one day. without stopping, i will finish it in one breath! yeah.. so excited..