Thursday, November 30, 2006

Got a job at Chevrons as a waitress with caiyun.pay is quite good. plus point is that i dun have to work everyday. ha, only for some occasions like weddings and parties. so this means i still have time play ps2, read books, spend time with god and go out. nothing much to do really now that the holidays is here. but it's great to leave studying off for a moment (not that I did much studying last time but I'm really gonna go all the way next year, after all we're celebrating the year of victory next year!)

had cell today. it was extremely enriching. valerie shared loads of her life with us toay. whoa for someone we have just met. it's real great. We discussed about something which is relly close to my heart, which is the fact that our family members still do not know God. i know that my parents think that I'm being brainwashed by those halleluing people in church. well, it hurts me to hear people say that Christains always like to brainwash people. God is gentle. he doesn't like to force people to do things which they don't like. He gives them a choice to do what they wanna do or to simply follow the path that He has laid out for them. It's not like someone is pointing a gun to my head when i received Christ right?

And also the point is that we really do not want to see the people we love (yes, love) not going to know God. take for example when me and meechay asked our friends to go to the magic of love this dec, it's not like we are doing it for a profit or some kind of selfish benefits. We are doing it so as to five our friends a chane to know God. Knowinig God is not something to be ashamed of. i'm proud to be a Christian and I'm glad that I'm a Christian and is it wrong to want for my friends to know God too and for them to receive the blessings that I got from him too? No, it's not! i know that i sound agitated here but it's not because of the rejection that I received. It's because of the very pressing problem that we have in our present society. Good grades, great pals, reputable schools, boyfriends, girlfriends, an excellent carreer, stable income and loads more. Is there really nothing to life then these? Sure, some people may think that having dreams and pursuing them, making full of their time and having fun all the time is something to fulfill ones's life, but I know that however satisfied that they may look on the outside, no one is really whole without knowing God. We know for so long that we are created by God, each of us are special and unique indibiduals much loved by Him, of course we can only be complete with Him. He made us in such a way that each of our hearts have a God-shaped void. Now, I'm not trying to brainwash people here. you can close this window if you feel offended by my words. whatever, i dun really care. after all, each person has the right to make choices for themselves. Oh ya, and not that I dun think having dreams and pursuing them is useless. It is useless unless those dreams that a person has is from God.

ok, coming back to the point, I believe that I have become a Christain to fulfil God's will for me. I have receieved Christ so that my family members couold know God in the future. I sure love thhem to bits. sure I don't want to leave without knowing God. plus, i want them to be as blessed as i am. this sunday going to run in the standard chartered marathon 10 km!!!!!!! after the race think my muscles are gonna ache like mad. haha. also, next year it's a year of victory. actually, it's victory always for God's children. haha. and we're gonnna celebrate our victory first. yeah, confidence is our middle name.

i'm going to buy a really nice and colourful hardcover notebook for me to write down all the things i feel, including God and many of the things i experience. short of being a diary, this notebook is gonna be the most exciting thing i had ever written. yeah.

really need to get started on thinking of my new year resolutions for next year. I had never thought of them before in my life. thhink i'm going to keep things short, sim ple and easy to remember. Oh, and my class chalet is real fun and hip. really great time with my classmates. sort of like a farewell gathering for all of us. but let's pray dat we wun forget each other ten years down the road. heard from ro dat dey paid 20 sth for a super crampped and uncomfortable room while we only paid only 10 for great lodgings. bwahahaha.

one last thing, i'm proud to be a Christian.