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Tuesday, December 25, 2007

What do most people think of christmas? Most likely, they will think that it’s just another season, another date, another yearly event. Most wouldn’t know the origins of Christmas and seriously in this present year and age, there are more appealing stuff for youngsters to be occupied with. Who would want to bother sitting through a boring service and going to a Christmas party where there isn’t lots of partying and lot’s of alcohol? The world thinks Christmas is a season for indulgence, indulgence in pleasures and desires, of the flesh and of the mind. However how long do the excitement and pleasure last? They dressed to kill, went there, told themselves they would rock the place that night, ended up getting lots of booze and vodka and other ‘get high’ drinks down their throats, went to dance and keep on the look out for hot guys and babes, waited and jumped at the chances to get intimate with each other. This is what the world thinks of Christmas, it’s all about the fun, the excitement and the merry-making. Well, no matter how ‘high’ they could get, how much pleasure they could derive from the things they did, it’s only temporary. The day passes into the 26th, the events sweep by like a mere memory, the shops remove their Christmas decors and things go back to normal. During this period of time, from Christmas eve to the actual day, are the things done by them worth it? Even if it’s for the slightest length of time, would they treasure it always, the immorality? Yeah you’re probably thinking right now that im just another preachy fellow who always want to insist her ‘holy’ opinions on other people and who always want to condemn others by saying how foolish the things they’re doing and how immoral are they. Well, God did not send His son to condemn the world, but to save the world through him (John 3:16). Btw, I saw this verse outside a Tangs outlet, ha. If you’re thinking, “ it’s as though we need such a person whom we don’t know even is fiction or non-fiction to come save us, please, I’m doing terribly and exremely fine on my own and with my own religion, and so I don’t need any of the so-called help that he’s offering.” Well, if you look at the trend since the 60’s to the present time you’ll know what I mean. There is a visible trend of people towards having less liberations about sexuality and about the moral values that they hold. What happened to the ‘no sex’ policy of moe last time? Well, now it has been changed to ‘safe sex’. People are having fewer reservations and more liberation. Of course, there are some who insist that there is nothing at all wrong with this shift in thinking, that they can indeed grow happier by having less reservations they hold in regards to other people. Then, what do they find after fling after fling after fling, no matter how much appeal it holds, it still doesn’t change the fact that it’s not going to be lasting! At the end of the day, it’s still loneliness for them to bear, no real love, no true shelters to stay in permanently, nothing which they can hold on for sure, nothing which they know will be absolutely unchangeable.

Some quotes to end this post off…

“God knows mankind. He knows that we’re too broken and to lonely to make the first move. That’s why he took the first step and became his sacrifice for us. He died for our sins and then later, sent out invitations to us.”

“God let His son get butchered so we can have life, and abundantly.”

“Christianity is more than a religion, it’s a relationship with God, a connection, a life journey.”

“The Christian faith is about God living in us, not about working to uphold the rules.”

“You can never think your way through God, you can only believe through Him.”

“Love makes a person vulnerable, the people you love the most are the ones who can hurt you most badly. The more you love, the more you might get hurt and rejected. That’s why we are afraid to give it all, afraid to take the first step.”

“Jesus came for the sinners, not those who are ‘good enough’. Like you go to the doctor when you’re sick, not when you become better first then go see him, same logic.”

And for my favourite quotes…

“How can I make God love me more?”
“It’s absolutely impossible. God loves us always, in fact, twice now from since He created us, after He bought us back at a price.”

There’s a story behind this favourite quote of mine, but I’m not going to recount the entire story. Let’s just think this way. You made something, an object. It can be anything, a necklace, a card etc. But what matters most is that you are proud of it, because you made it so beautifully. But then it got lost and naturally you get so heartbroken and devastated. Then, you found a chance to obtain the object back, but alas! You will have to pay a price to get it back and there’s no other alternatives! But then, you really love this object of yours, that’s why you feel that you must, definitely get it back, no matter what price you pay. Then after some intense efforts to attempt to get it back, you finally paid the price and voila! The object become yours again.

That’s why you love your object all the more, in fact twice more than it is in the beginning. You love it at first because you made it, and then you love it twice over because you bought it back.

People say that thinking about stuff like this is boring but I beg to differ. It makes all the difference in the world if you know that there is someone so great and yet still loves you that much.

Thursday, December 20, 2007

i want to walk down the streets not caring about the thousands of faces that i pass by/i want to swing my arms around/ jump up at random points and laugh like i've just seen the funniest joke ever/i want to act like an idiot in this endless phase of time where people always try to act smart/i want to do things my own way/using the method i'm most comfortable with/not caring about their opinions/just being concerned for myself and me only/i don't want to be controlled by any other person on earth/i want to stand alone on a hilltop/gazing down at the millions of lights coming from the earth's foolish inhabitants/seeing them get around slogging their guts out/all for a so-called comfortable life/i want to be a dime on a street/pick up a musical instrument and hope i'll become talented at it/go from street to street carrying my only means of survival with me/play whatever music i like to my hearts' content/it doesn't matter if it's not pleasing to their ears/they can laugh all they want/but i won't change my style just for them/ill look on the sea of faces with uncaring eyes and continue being a wanderer/going from district to district zone to zone/i'll find myself starving under the night sky/praying desperately for a hot bowl of udon/or just about anything that seems relatively edible/i'll not lose the chance to grab it/i'll find myself shivering when winter comes/with only a thin and tattered piece of excuse as a passable sweater to give me warmth or the lack of/i'll walk around among the many dark shadows finding the most deserted alleyway to spend my night/i'll chse the cats away and mark that spot as my temporary territory/i'll use the matches i've stolen earlier to strike up a decent fire/i'll place my hands over the blaze/not caring if i touch the flames/i'll sing a song of celebration/celebration for myself/celebration of the future that is yet to come/celebration of this carefree life that i lead/never once would i look back/never once would i find myself wondering 'what if'/i've taken on this route/it doesn't matter much now/regrets are reserved for idiots who can't make up their minds/i pride myself on being decisive/i'll forge on ahead knowing that i made the decision for myself only/not caring about others with others not caring about me/a lonely existence that may be/and most likely when i die no one would bother to bury my corpse/i would probably fade away under the hot sun/get treated like ordinary trash/maybe that's what i've always been right from the start/trash unworthy of this earth/trash which don't deserve a second glance/there would be no one there to mourn my death/along with the other wanderers of this earth/we would get ignored/no one pitying us and no one caring about us/but that's where the catch comes/who says we want to be pitied/who says we yearn for other human contact?/our existence is for ourselves only/the world spawned us they didn't follow through their actions/left us to fend for ourselves/to such a world i would much better be left alone to my own devices/they think they are superior/they think they're the best/they judge each other based on what they wear and how many certs they hold/im glad to be out of this vicious cycle/hypocrisy often finds themselves being passed down/from parents to children/i would have none of the problem/since i would love no one and no one would love me/after my walk on earth what comes of me next i wonder/whatever that is/i'm sure the people would not be of this sort/humans they would not be/perhaps they would be angels/perhaps i might even meet God Himself/i saw often when i passed by these little churches/those well-fed plump humans who sing to several octaves and let their voices be carried through the wind/is there really such a God i wonder/should i ever meet Him one day/i would most probably look up at him/for i think he would be rather tall and well-built/i would take a good look at him/especially His eyes for these are the only places where you can find people's most sincere feelings/i would tell Him what a world He has created/a world in which people kill off each other and fend only for themselves/a world where corruption takes its toll every single day/and a world which is too beatiful to house these lowly inhabitants called humans/i don't care about what his reaction would be/He would probably raise His big hand to smack me across the face for insulting His creation/i don't and would never care/this entire dimension of existence/i've lived and not found it's significance/i've lived and not found anything worthy to cling onto/i've been born having hope/but that hope was cruelly taken away from me/i've lived and lost/i've lived and still hasn't found the meaning to my existence/i've never left any imprints on people/even the places i've went to hold no evidences of me having been there/i've lived and yet not smiled/or rather i've not found any reason to smile/what do tommorow hold for me?/i'll never know/but ill live the way i've lived before/not caring/never complaining/just taking life's shits as they come along/sometimes succeeding sometimes failing/i'll never find the answers i've been looking for/and yet i would keep on searching/searching for that impossible holy grail/searching but not yielding fruits/that's the existence i'll lead/that's the life i've chosen/and i'll never have any regrets.

Monday, December 17, 2007

gosh, im now hooked on NARUTO SHIPPUDEN!! it's way, way, way better than the first series of naruto and that's a surprise, as seeing how i became peeved at it for having so many filler episodes. the second series has better fighting scenes, is a lot more touching and is more humourous too. i simply love gaara, he's kakoii! oh and the opening and ending themes are really nice too.

as the days draw near
i tear my eyes away from the calendar
those that did better are my peers
in my head is the accumulating number
faster and faster it piles
towards the endless space
it causes my rise of bile
i could become a basketcase

haha, this is the situation for me right now, with me and my homework. xD

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Christmas is coming! And most people would associate Christmas with Santa Claus, the person they call the 'Father of Christmas'. I was really amused and surprised when P. Eugene became so agitated suddenly, saying that he really detest the folklore of Santa Claus. Well, it was understandable, seeing how Jesus Himself was left out in every Christmas season when people would rather celebrate this season with singing to welcome Santa Claus, leaving the rightful guest-of-honour. Even if there really are sayings that Santa exist in the far away lands of north pole, it still doesn't change the fact that it was all a mythical tale which were created way after the birth of Jesus. Christmas is actually the day in which Jesus was born, it was His birthday, yet people celebrate Christmas without knowing the actual meaning, of course all these has got to do with commercialisation and the likes. Do you know that if you rearrange the 'n' in Santa, it becomes Satan? It's really smart of the devil to implant in young children the tale of the Santa Claus, they would grow up always thinking about Santa in the Christmas season, never giving Jesus their attention at all. The birth of Jesus is not an ordinary birth, God even sent a bunch of angels to tell some shepherds about His birth, such was the effort that God took to tell the world of Jesus' birth, and what has it become today?

An anoynomous person wrote this letter, in the point of view from Jesus, about His most likely thoughts on that fixed day every year.

Dear All,

As you well know, we are getting closer to My birthday. Every year there is a celebration in my honor and I think that this year the celebration will be repeated. During this time there are many people shopping for gifts, there are many Radio announcements, TV commercials, and in every part of the world everyone is talking that My birthday is getting closer and closer. It is really very nice to know, that at least once a year, some people think of Me.

As you know, the celebration of My birthday began many years ago. At first people seemed to understand and be thankful of all that I did for them, but in these times, no one seems to know the reason for the celebration. Family and friends get together and have a lot of fun, but they don't know the meaning of the celebration. I remember that last year there was a great feast in My honor. The dinner table was full of delicious foods, pastries, fruits, assorted nuts and chocolates. The decorations were exquisite and there were many, many beautifully wrapped gifts.However, do you want to know something? I was not invited. I was the guest of honor and they didn't remember to send me an invitation. The party was for me, but when that great day came, I was left outside, they closed the door in my face .. and I wanted to be with them and share their table. In truth, that didn't surprise me because in the last few years all close their doors to me. Since I wasn't invited, I decided to enter the party without making any noise. I went in and stood in a corner.

They were all drinking; there were some who were drunk and telling jokes and laughing at everything. They were having a grand time. To top it all, this big fat man all dressed in red wearing a long white beard entered the room yelling Ho-Ho-Ho! He seemed drunk. He sat on the sofa and all the children ran to him, saying: "Santa Claus, Santa Claus" as if the party were in his honor! At midnight all the people began to hug each other; I extended my arms waiting for someone to hug Me and do you know no-one hugged Me. Suddenly they all began to share gifts. They opened them one by one with great expectation. When all had been opened, I looked to see if, maybe, there was one for Me. What would you feel if on your birthday everybody shared gifts and you did not get one?

I then understood that I was unwanted at that party and quietly left. Every year it gets worse. People only remember the gifts, the parties, to eat and drink, and nobody remembers Me. I would like this Christmas that you allow Me to enter into your life. I would like that you recognize the fact that almost two thousand years ago I came to this world to give My life for you, on the cross, to save you.Today, I only want that you believe this with all your heart. I want to share something with you. As many didn't invite me to their party, I will have my own celebration, a grandiose party that no one has ever imagined, a spectacular party. I'm still making the final arrangements. Today I am sending out many invitations and there is an invitation for you. I want to know if you wish to attend and I will make a reservation for you and write your name with golden letters in my great guest book.

Only those on the guest list will be invited to the party. Those who don't answer the invite, will be left outside. Be prepared because when all is ready you will be PART of MY GREAT PARTY.

See you soon. I Love you!



Tuesday, December 11, 2007


btw, i highly recommend a j-drama which is KUROSAGI!! in 4 hrs' time, shall be leaving for indonesia to visit relatives, aww, shall miss my dog!

Sunday, December 09, 2007

whenever i watch a horror movie or are being told a horror story, at night, i would definitely not get to sleep and keep thinking about the images of the 'ghosts'. things around my room suddenly became ghosts overnight, anything dark and relatively long would be considered as their shadowy figures and i would not dare to take my eyes away from them, in case they come at me. even though i know that i'm imagining things and that i only became scared after my mind got stimulated about these stuff and so it isn't ghosts which are haunting me but instead it's only my restless mind keeping itself from sleeping. but the song below always helps to drive away my fear and after just singing it once i'm not scared at all.. after all, God is greater than anything else. truly it is only Him who can drive away all fear and provide comfort..

Come Holy Spirit (聖靈請你來) - City Harvest Church
Come Holy Spirit fall on me now
I need your anointing come in your power
I love you Holy Spirit
You're captivating my soul
And everyday I grow to love you more
I'm reaching for your heart
You hold my life in your hand
Drawing me closer to you
I feel your power renew
Nothing compares to this place
Where I can see you face to face
I worship you in spirit and in truth

我要追求你主 我將生命獻給你
牽引我更親近你 你大能更新我靈
無人能與你相比 主我仰望你的榮面

oh, and i know how to read the fan ti zi!! haha, im so proud of myself..