had an excellent cell section ytd. so satisfying. last time i used to hate going to cell, i thought that my officer was forcing me to go. actually i dsliked it at the beginning because of the venue. me and ro had to travel by the mrt all the way to bukit merah. at that time, i thought that bukit merah from clementi was quite far. I was thinking for quite some weeks each time i was expected to go," so far.. still need to take train.. and anyway almost everyone i knew are not christians. they dun even know what is 'cell'.. then i seemed to be so extra when i had to go to that %^&#$@ cell when my frens are having fun or going home to relax.. i still need to be out for a few hours.. so tired.. after a day of studying still need to do this kind of thing.. haiz.. " really. this was really my opinion of cell at first. i soooo hated it. also i hated it even further when other ppl asked me what is 'cell', is it the bio thing or wat. then at that point i really felt as though i was a freak. im so extra. only me doing this kind of thing. i felt so misunderstood and also a bit embarassed to say , "oh, it's a gathering to share about God" then in my mind, i will think about what the other party is thinking in her mind. it will most probably be like this,"gathering? god? get a life! i want nothing to do with this kind of religious freak!"

it was only until a few sessions of cell that i really got to know about God better. I learnt that we should not be ashamed to announce that we are the children of God and that also we should not be ashamed in the Gospel. if like for instance our close frens doubted about the genuinity of what was being said in the bible, we should not allow our hearts to waver and like our frens, have doubts in the word of God. and then because of our frens' suspicions and doubts, we feel ashamed to have shared something that sound so unbelievable to someone whose opinion u value. when u feel ashamed about the gospel, u would also feel ashamed and embarassed to be God's child. God is the creator of everything (just take a look around),how can u feel ashamed to admit about ur relationship with Him? instead of telling unbelievers this," ya, I'm a Christian and a child of God..but i dun always believe in what He says in the Bible.. i think onmy own too an dun always take every word as the truth.." and trying to hint that we are not one of those 'fools' who follow blind faith and who are so religious to the point that they go to do this boliao thing of seeking the desperate measure of worshipping something so invisible and so fake when they dun even have haunting childhoods and deep troubles like so obviously the Christians have, otherwise y are they so 'on' onto that kind of 'Oh God i love u stuff''.

anyway, back to what i was saying earlier and that is my cell meeting. i slowly began to like cell more and more. instead of dreading the moment to go, i anticipate the strong presence of God and the chance to hear my officer share abouot something enlightening. when i wrote the word 'enlightening', i really meant it. before i went to this single cell meeting, i was like an ignorant fool, blind to the things that i've never thought of and noticed before. during the sharing section, i would be like an egg being cracked open by someone who had never cracked any eggs before, an eggie amatuer. the cracks are beginning to form but because of the way the shell refused to budge under the constant knocking of the inexperienced wrist and arm movements, they spread over a larger area. then slowly the finale comes and out pops the egg contents with a spew. kai qiao le! that is when would be like open-mouthed, with all the drool dripping all over my chin and onto my clothes but with my brain finally being able to percceive some kind of insightful knowledge ( that is not applicable to our exams and our resumes for finding jobs but would serve a much more important purpose of leading me to an eternal blissful life with God. trust me, results aren't everything (not that i am saying this out of spite that i always seemed to get the lan lan results among my super brainy classmates), u can't bring ur excellent, perfect, flying kind of beautiful colourful results and achievements to heaven or hell after u die, nor could u bringur prized handphone, ipod, branded nike adidas puma and watever goods with u. what really remains true to ur spirit and true to ur person as a whole is your relationaship with God. for instance, u teach someone a particularly difficult a.maths question. u feel so satisfied after watching that someone understand with that relieved look plasted onto his face. but can this knowledge of mathematics (or other knowledge of science, great literature works, art skills, debating skills blabla) last for eternity? what that really lasts for eternity is this: the glorification of God. (oh wait wait wait, dun accuse me first of starting on the rerligious things again. hey im at least 15 yrs of age k? i could tell what's true, what's false and what's right, what's wrong. not being brainwashed u may think i am. in fact, im as sane as any sane professor on earth- for mars i dunno haha just joking.. anw.. for me to be so enthu about Christianity must say about sth rite? and that is that Christianity is the 'religion' that makes the most sense out of so many philosophies. ok, back on track. when i share about God to someone else, let's say he or she receives Christ. this receiving of Jesus into your heart and letting God be the King of your lives instead and not to succumb to the triump of Satan and his slaves and the sins that they invent is something that wil lasts for eternity. it will stay on for dunno hw many trillions of years to come. it will never change. it will remain the same. Same as God's faithfulness and His love towards us. Long ago, the physicists realised that it is actually electrons that move from the negative terminal to the positive terminal but not the positive ions that move from the positive terminals to the negative terminal as they believed so long ago. they trust this piece of info. thinking that what they had discovered and investigated is the ultimate truth that is to change the face of the physics world for generations to come. however they were wrong! All humans can never be sure about something they find. who knows? maybe even F=ma could be wrong the next day. we could never know! What we could really be sure is God. he is a constant. He is the only thing in this entire universe of existence that would never ever change. He is still the same now as before. as 2000 yrs ago. isn't that cool? he died for us at that time, and should we become so sinful He would choose to die for us again in a heartbeat. When u're feeling so down and low because of some kind of upsetting incident, just remember the Lord's love. Remember how he went through and endured all that sick torture just for the sake of us. for us to be cleansed, free and protected by the power of His blood.