Youth camp is amazing. the ministry session is even more powerful than encounter camp. God just brought me back to the cross during the song 'Come, Holy Spirit'. I thought that i was always ever that strong in Him, that really, my faith in Him will not waver. But i was wrong. it seems that we always have to seek the Lord. We do things, thinking that it's for Him and sometimes when our relationship with Him is not renewed, when we begin to rely on our own strength instead, our hearts are hardened and living for God becomes like a routine, like something which we must do, which we are even compelled to do. All along i didn't realise the reason why God put me in those trying moments in the first place. maybe that's why i was feelins so empty during the worship session. i was thinking to myself, all the things that happened, why did they even happen? i just felt so tired running this race and constantly trying to overcome that particular problem. Then i started to cry so badly until pastor julie came to pray for me... the presence of the holy spirit is very strong and that caused me to weep even harder. God is telling me that no matter what happens, He is all for me and His love is so great it will transcends all difficulties. it seems that all these while, ive been unconsciously worrying, even if me myself thought that i was really giving up all my burdens onto Him. i knew that He is there, really there, and i felt it with His strong presence. so i gave myself up to crying out to Him and to cast my burdened self to Him. Now that i look back on hindsight, i realise that we often need to renew our relationship with God, that's why going to service is such an important thing, because then will we have the chance to experience Him all over again. otherwise over time, our hearts will harden and we might even doubt His existence, His love and even our worthiness. i really like the chapel at the marine parade tc, it was the place where God brought me back to Him again and my passion for Him is buring even more strongly. It is also the place where i was slain, after that regrettable encounter camp last time. i could have been slain at that time but i stubbornly refused to fall in His presence, cos i wanted to preserve my pride. and i truly regretted that moment when i chose my pride over Him instead. ha, now im so glad. and being slain is so cool, to rest in God's presence, who doesn't want that?
Then i went back to the tent first and laid there, i was asking God why was i still feeling burdened.. as usual, God reminded me not to burden myself with thinking that no one understands my problems, it is enough just for Him to understand me, since He is the one who will understand me the most thoroughly. yupps, so this camp has really brought our relationship even closer. it gave us messages from God too, like how each of us are running different races, like how each of us have our own different lives to lead, different decisions to make, different challenges to face. No one else can run the race for another and each can only run his own race, then can that race be ran the best. no one else may understand. but God understands. and that really is enough.
Psalm 46:1-3
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.
4/5 gathering is great. i really miss my secondary class so much. they say the best friends in life are made in secondary schools, that is like so true. i feel that even after much time of not seeing each other, the wheels of time have just been started again once we gather together. and we click so well together, not that are like so nice, not that the new frens i made in a new school are not, but it's just that connection. jc is really different from secondary schools, particularly abt those friends u make, whether they will ever last u till a long time.
service today is even more great since alot of us just came back from youth camp and the atmosphere is different from usual. youths gearing up and roaring for God. and im one of them! so glad that i went to youth camp. i went, knowing that we will learn more abt God, yet ive got more things which ive not expected, like personal messages and how ive known more ppl in church.
soccer camp just one day after my youth camp, is there an even better combination? much as i hate it (all the physical stuff are really tiring!), i have to go, and since God places me in this school and everything else, they are all for my own good.. yea..
btw, i was late for p.e. today for like around 30 mins and that equals to nothing, like zero attendance, so i have to go for one more time to make up for that. AHH!! and it's like not even my fault!!!! ive to pass my fren sth and she was LATE!!!!!! she's late so im late. ha. but it's not like i had nth to gained, she treated me to a bottle of ponk dolphin! lol..
100k blessings at east coast on the last day of youth camp is great. weather is hot so ppl must be happy to receive water right? ha, but apparently there are some ppl who thought that we're selling the water or that we want donations in return, there's even a woman whom i approached just immediately said no thanks after i mentioned that i was from faith community baptist church. ha, this is called allergy to churches and Christianity.. well, but still we managed to bless plenty of ppl in the hot weather.
oh, sth that really made an impact on us.. on the 2nd third morning, for some reason we got up at 5 am instead of 7am (ha, fortunately i slept early, think was asleep by 1145!) and we are just singing this song abt jesus on a vessel and doing the actions and stuff. then after we're being dismissed, this woman just came up to p. julie and said," what would Jesus say to a crying woman?" and then she just started to cry, right there in front of strangers. p. julie was shocked and couldn't say anything more than," Jesus would say that He loves you and God loves you too." it turned out that this woman was previously a Christian who backslided and for some reasons she just lost faith in God due to some problems faced. she qouted bible verses from her finger tips and even asked if we're from fcbc. then the funny thing is that p. julie started to look around herself to see if there's anything indicating that we're from fcbc. ha, there's nth around that said that we're from fcbc but still. God must have told her that. the thing is when God moves, He moves and nothing will stop Him. we did nth at all in particular to touch this woman's heart but it is God who worked. ultimately, God is the one working his miracles and should we not have woken up at 5 am, this woman would not have been ministered to and her life would continue be the same as before. God just works in brilliant ways and it's unpredictable about what might happen, really.
churchwide prayer meeting on wed, hope i would not fall asleep like what i did today. (this is supposed to be a secret) also, looking forward to bringing blessings to 20 ppl around me. 100 k campaign is really for us to rise up as His warriors. We will go to war! We have fought the good fight, we have finished the race, we have kept the faith!! ;-)
Then i went back to the tent first and laid there, i was asking God why was i still feeling burdened.. as usual, God reminded me not to burden myself with thinking that no one understands my problems, it is enough just for Him to understand me, since He is the one who will understand me the most thoroughly. yupps, so this camp has really brought our relationship even closer. it gave us messages from God too, like how each of us are running different races, like how each of us have our own different lives to lead, different decisions to make, different challenges to face. No one else can run the race for another and each can only run his own race, then can that race be ran the best. no one else may understand. but God understands. and that really is enough.
Psalm 46:1-3
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.
4/5 gathering is great. i really miss my secondary class so much. they say the best friends in life are made in secondary schools, that is like so true. i feel that even after much time of not seeing each other, the wheels of time have just been started again once we gather together. and we click so well together, not that are like so nice, not that the new frens i made in a new school are not, but it's just that connection. jc is really different from secondary schools, particularly abt those friends u make, whether they will ever last u till a long time.
service today is even more great since alot of us just came back from youth camp and the atmosphere is different from usual. youths gearing up and roaring for God. and im one of them! so glad that i went to youth camp. i went, knowing that we will learn more abt God, yet ive got more things which ive not expected, like personal messages and how ive known more ppl in church.
soccer camp just one day after my youth camp, is there an even better combination? much as i hate it (all the physical stuff are really tiring!), i have to go, and since God places me in this school and everything else, they are all for my own good.. yea..
btw, i was late for p.e. today for like around 30 mins and that equals to nothing, like zero attendance, so i have to go for one more time to make up for that. AHH!! and it's like not even my fault!!!! ive to pass my fren sth and she was LATE!!!!!! she's late so im late. ha. but it's not like i had nth to gained, she treated me to a bottle of ponk dolphin! lol..
100k blessings at east coast on the last day of youth camp is great. weather is hot so ppl must be happy to receive water right? ha, but apparently there are some ppl who thought that we're selling the water or that we want donations in return, there's even a woman whom i approached just immediately said no thanks after i mentioned that i was from faith community baptist church. ha, this is called allergy to churches and Christianity.. well, but still we managed to bless plenty of ppl in the hot weather.
oh, sth that really made an impact on us.. on the 2nd third morning, for some reason we got up at 5 am instead of 7am (ha, fortunately i slept early, think was asleep by 1145!) and we are just singing this song abt jesus on a vessel and doing the actions and stuff. then after we're being dismissed, this woman just came up to p. julie and said," what would Jesus say to a crying woman?" and then she just started to cry, right there in front of strangers. p. julie was shocked and couldn't say anything more than," Jesus would say that He loves you and God loves you too." it turned out that this woman was previously a Christian who backslided and for some reasons she just lost faith in God due to some problems faced. she qouted bible verses from her finger tips and even asked if we're from fcbc. then the funny thing is that p. julie started to look around herself to see if there's anything indicating that we're from fcbc. ha, there's nth around that said that we're from fcbc but still. God must have told her that. the thing is when God moves, He moves and nothing will stop Him. we did nth at all in particular to touch this woman's heart but it is God who worked. ultimately, God is the one working his miracles and should we not have woken up at 5 am, this woman would not have been ministered to and her life would continue be the same as before. God just works in brilliant ways and it's unpredictable about what might happen, really.
churchwide prayer meeting on wed, hope i would not fall asleep like what i did today. (this is supposed to be a secret) also, looking forward to bringing blessings to 20 ppl around me. 100 k campaign is really for us to rise up as His warriors. We will go to war! We have fought the good fight, we have finished the race, we have kept the faith!! ;-)
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